★same goes here★

When i'm thinking back,till when we gonna fight? rite? both of us grown up already and GOD gave us the brain to use it on the rite way. I'm so sorry too. I dont want to lose friend like you. You such a good person,you care bout me,you be my listner,you make me laugh with your fucking damn jokes. Play bowling together(you lose wek),we eat together plus you teach me some pretty cool thing(put the cream into my drink)and find the pet shop. You so damn kind. I really miss that momment.. I never ever forget that. SUMPAH RINDU NERIL!!!! NERIL BANGANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Please dont do that again and please dont leave me me alone. ☆I LOVE YOUUUUU!☆

HUH?

what the fuck? did you know what the situation is mean just now? i'm try to keep back our friendship. But when i read your latest update "but up to you la nk maafkan atau tidak"/okayh la, kau bagus sgt en. slap orang kau nmpak. slap sndri tk nmpk. huh, MR. PERFECT !" you want play dirty with me? fine. bring it on. what the fuck is this? you think im so cruel or what? i use my own brain and i know how to use it,plus if someone apologise to me i will accepted it in the good way. Dont judge me on that way. You know why i remove you and delete you from my friends? its because you not NERIL i know before. You change!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If not im your second T.F but suddenly you put him and you throw me back. Ya ofcouse i'm jelous. I know you know him first before me is it? Thats why i think better i remove you and why should i keep it? tell me? Make me more hurt? or what else. I dont know la NERIL. I think im not good enough for you. I'm not live on your area. I'm not live here longer. This is the way you treat me? You also dont know me well and me neither. We still fresh. We friends not to long around 2 month kinda. Its impssble we will get BEST FRIENDS TITTLE rite? Just go with your NEW FRIENDS WHICH IS YOU KNOW HIM WELL :"). Tell you the truth i already bought a present for your last bday and i was plan to give you this april plus gonna celeb my bday together before i'm move to amsterdam, But its impssble. My plan was like"you car hit me away". Nevermind neril i accepted it. .Im really a bad person. Should i go away from your life? or will i delete our momment?

☆NEPHEW☆

here my nephew. His name Amirul Azham Bin Mohd Roslan. He's age? hahaha i dont know.
maybe around 3-4 years old. I adore his hair,so curling. arghhhh. Miss him so badly.
i got big family which is i had 8 siblings,4 girls and 4 boys
i'm the last one ^^..
you know what i got 5 niece and 3 nephew. i love all of them

I LOVE YOU.

what the fish!

what? pardon? you said im talking bad bout you? can you understand the situation is? i'm said,i just feel? talking crab and feeling not similar words,those words its a big defferent. If i'm wrong or my words hurt you i'm sorry for that. No need to make this probs getting worse. Its not a healthy way. We grown up already then we have to think wisely. We not kids anymore. If you want this probs go huge lets go. You never been treated like this la NERIL. You had no idea what is feel. Try imagine if some friends against back you? What you gonna do? How you gonna feel? You happy jump around or what? If i do some mistake towards my friends i know how to apologise but you? Pretend like nothing happend. I dont have any words to say. I'm done. If you dont want me live in your dictionary its fine. :'). LETS PARTY.

IS IT?

Like adam said
"THE JOURNEY BEGINS"

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning
but
anyone can start today and
make a new ending...

p/s: If i could,i just wanna go back and fix everything about me
the past is better than now.
but how come?
The hope is we have to accepted what the God give us
and appericiated it.
we still young and to many obstacles we have to go through
hope the future come with the good way

THANKS TO TIKA

Thanks alot Tika for doing this sign to me. I love this one. Plus you know i love to skate. hahaha no wonder. You should become a photographer heee :"). what a nice angle really ^^. Later you can snap my pic heeee. You so nice. I really appericiated it. Thanks again and again.

LOVE TIKA

SAYONARA OLD FRIENDS

This is NERIL. I'm used to be her best buddy but now not anymore. I'm not desperated or whatsoever. I just hate those people who are so fucking swank,hypocrite and bla bla bla. When got new friends she so easy forget bout me. WHAT THE FUCK!. You never been treated like this and thats why you dont know how it feel. I know how's the pain is cause i used to be treated like that before. "You know like,when you know somebody then you getting close with him then both of you share your happiness and sadness together. Suddenly another guy want to know you then you more close with him by day to day then you so easy forget your old frnds which is more care bout you." Is it have to be that way? Alot of drama here and i'm tired to be treated like this. I bet later you will feel what i felt just now. You just wait and see. I know i just a games friend plus i dont have a good eyes as you. You want all your friends perfect,good looking,smart and etc: ????? All human being not perfect at all. None of us. Except Our GOD. No need to judge or make compare on those thing. I'm tired NERIL. Nevermind then. Thanks for all your kindness. Thanks for everything. Hope Allah will show you back what exactly i was feel.

Yesterday at 5.14 pm i'm went to Alip house. We hang at Tat Nasi Ayam then we straight ahead go to skatepark. We skate till 730 pm. The sky was really dark. Alip started his engine then ride like hell. So fucking fast. The rain really hurting us. Its like a rock. Seriously so hurt. We arrived safely at Alip house. We so wet. So cold. I pee on my pants heee :'). Raining still out there. The thunder play up there. Then Alip mom bring some hot milo and garlic bread,so delicious. The clock show 843 pm. Its not raining already. Thanks to Alip and his mom,then i go home safely ^^.

LOVE HER SO MUCH
INGA/TEDDY

Her name INGA and she from Russian. Now she studying so hard for her sake. I hope she can do well on all kind of examination. She like to read and she also write some poems. 1 more thing she so talented on drawing too :'). She so cool. So damn kind. Plus she so gorgeous. I adore her pictures. All her pictures so stunning. Her smile her eyes so pretty. She love to sing. She love to compose songs. She used to sent her video to me while she playing with her guitar. So cool! I do love it. She really a good friend. If something bad happend to me,i always goes to her.
She know how to settle it out. We will meet this year,amsterdam and russian not to far,hope our wish will be fullfilled :')
Thanks TEDDY. You helping me alot both at inside and outside.
May GOD bless your JOURNEY,HEALTHY&YOUR BELOVER FAMILY.
LOVE YOU TEDDY!

I WANT FOEGET THE PAST & LIVE THE PRESENT

So many bad things happend on me this lately days. My friend Faiqah was gone by day to day. She never look it me and thats really hurting me as her friend. Eman my close friend was not like before anymore. He changed alot. I just cant get it. Why me? I'm really tired to be like this. Sometimes i just want to throw out their name from my mind. But i cant. For me they so fucking cool. Helping me alot. I never forget that. When they got something new they just forget bout me. Is it what we call friends. I dont want the same thing happen back on me again. The way i think bout them the most i get the hurt. Nvm then. I hope both of them will happy always. This is the end of our relationship as a friends. Thanks for all your kindness towards me. I will never forget that and i will never ever step into your life again. I will erase our momment. Take care then. My mom always said "friends never been gone". Thats true. I cant wait to meet my future true friends. The past was gone will full of sadness and the present will come with the full of surprise.

☆MEMORIES☆
1998-2004
SEKOLAH RENDAH KEBANGSAAN BUKIT PADANG KOTA KINABALU SABAH

FAVOURITE TEACHER/SIR★TEACHER AGATACHAN LIM AND SIR MOHD AFFANDI
BEST BUDDIES★Suhaila Bt Jumaati,Nazirah Bt Marzuki,Lesska Visanti,Halimatusaadiah Bt Ismail,Rabiatul Adawiyah Bt Sharudin,Brian Terry,Christoper Chin,Azmil B Nordidol,Amir Khairi B Mahmood,Mohd Hisham B Awang,Badruliman,Mohd Hafiz B Nasir,Saiful Ridzwan(frustrating,forgot the others name,SORRY)
HOPING★I really want to meet them. Miss the momment. I'll never ever forget bout you. You always in my mind.

I NEVER KNOW YOU

i'm really pissed off,i dont care if you wanna say me such a baby or whatsoever
just go on. bring it on. say it out. Let it out. Just gooooooooo! FUCK!!!!!!!! I dont care anymore bout you. I never know you. Just go away. Hated you so much! You wanna know why i being like this? cause you such a cruel person i ever met. When you got some new thing you just forget bout me. WHAT THE FUCK???? I know he live at the same city with you,but is it have to be that way? Is it have to treat me like this way? Where's your brain? Use it on the right way! OMG! Seriously you change so badly. Now,i tell you what. Start now dont you ever step to my life. Dont you dare mention bout me. For me you never exist! I'm tired. I dont want the same thing started again like my SHIT friends did towards me. I'm sick all bout this. FUCK! I rather friends with my own self. GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BEACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KINDA BLUR

arghhhhhhhhh!
why have to be like this?
i'm not your things?
i got my own feelings,cant you understand that
i know,you got a really harsh time
you struggling with alot of problems
and i do proud of you cause can handle it well
but,you not like i know you as before
you changed so badly
i guess,we just can be normal friend not more that that
sorry,i never know you

How COME??

ALEX LAMBERT

Why america so stupid? why kicked him out? He more talented than the others guy.
He's voice so fucking gorgeous.why you cant see that?
Seriously I'm really pissed off when you voted him out.
So fucking biatch!!!!
Losing him felt like i did a huge mistake in my life turthly
When the result came out,everyone speachless
They didnt expected that the person who have the voted was HIM!
This is really wrongfully eliminated
aarghhhhh!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE BRING HIM BACK!!
Please go to this site (change.org seach ALEX LAMBERT)
Now got 8934 people sign in need more 15000
JUST NEED 3 MINUTE,PLEASE!
HE DESERVE TO BE THERE

★HE's SO ADORABLE★

kenken the name. I really adore his hair. Like korean guy. Make me jelous.DAMN YOU! His just same like the SHINEE(korean band) guy,i dont know the lead singer name but kinda similar really. I tell you what,kenken so fucking cool,always acompany me,be my tutor heee ^^. Thanks ken for teach me how to speak chinease ^^. Dont you dare mess up with me,hahahah!! Thanks for being my good friend. I bet, i will crush on you ^^("i'm so gay") Thanks for being my good friend :')

I HAVE TO :( DAMN SHIT!

I already made my decision. I want to take back JULY PAPER-English,Bahasa Melayu and Mathematics. I hope this time will be great and well. Wish me luck. I dont want to make a mistake as i did as before. Start tomorrow i take tuition. Kinda embrrreeessing =.= I got ALIP to acompany me . HELL YEAH ^^

DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY

seriously i didnt expected to be like this. i really work hard for that. but the result really killing me. I just thought it will be going well but it wasn't. My result so shit!!
☆English - Absent(even i took the paper)
= Reason -I didnt took the oral plus that time i went to the Hospital fucked!
☆History - Absent(Do on purpose ^^)
☆Mathematics - Failed(forsure will be like this,didnt care)
☆Bahasa Melayu - Past
☆Science - Past
☆English Science
Technology - Credit
☆Agama Islam - Credit

☆Perdagangan - Credit

FREAKING ME OUT LOL!!

aaaarghhhh! tomorrow is the day. spm result lol! aiyooooo.. i'm really had no idea. I just thinking alot about my result. Forsure math,science and history will failed. I knew it will happen. Now I just want to rilex. Hope everything is fine! Wish me luck ^^

HOPE SHE FINE

my buddy,fyzz. I been noticed his mother went to the hospital caused of foetus.
i'm really sorry for that,wish his mother in the healthy way,may ALLAH bless her

NURUL AND AMAD I MISS YOU

today i got date with my old school friend Nurul shuhada.
it's been a age i never meet her after spm
when i went to the hospital
she totally kind,come by to me,bring food for me.
she also give me a several questions to answer it
give me some homeworks
ohh damn ^^ love you NURUL hahaha
i really like her as my good good friend
back to the story,i ask her to acompany me go to bsn,to buy pin number for application intake 2
i'm so shy if i go with my own self heeee ^^
then clock was 230 p.m
Nurul have to get going
then we hug each other wkwkwkwkw jokes only ^^ thanks NURUL
i went to amad place which is the bsn and city plaza not to far
i just come over to his place
Its been a long time i never meet my best friend,amad
even we live at the same city =.=.. hahahaahe busy with his work i guess
and we talk like a shit,laugh like nuts people
seriously so damn loud
all people start staring at us we just ignore it ^^
hahaha
then we went to mcD(<-- Favourite NERIL) lunch time liao
cheap only heeee ^^ then take off
go back to amad place
countinue our conversation
from sad to happy
we share our pain and happiness
we talk about our past
He thinking alot bout his result
i told him just relax
i know,he work hard for that,but no need to make your thoughts going blur.
4.00 p.m was already,said good bye then go home take my lovely board call alip
LETS ROLL!!!! HELL YEAH

finally got it ☆__★

Yesterday,i ask my mother to buy this pet,but firstly she said,just waste your money,but this time i really want it badly. i ask my brother and make a good reason plus i also begging for it. Then he agree and my mother also. I call Alip to accompany me go to the pet shop and clock was 7.oo p.m. Finally i bought it. Then Alip and me go to Lan house to take the cage. I borrow from him for a couple of day till i buy the new one. Thanks Lan. Sky was dark. Then go to Alip house and his mom told me to stay a while cause rain already plus thunder make a great movement up there. His mom so damn kind. Good in conversation and had a lot of experience bout this tiny cretures. They also got two sugar glider Momo and Coco if i'm not mistake. hmmm.. Raining gone already. I make my step. Ride my bike slowly cause road was oily. Then safely arrived at home ^^