Today i got a call from my father. my mom was hospitalized because of falls from a chair. She tried to open the door but she falls down. She fainted. Until now she did not wake up from fainting. After heard that my sister and me was very very chocked. Tears began to wet the cheeks. Our eyes reddening. My niece keep asking why we were crying. They are small,does not understand the current situation. My sister said my mom gettin worst. This time is really bad. We started worried. The tears keep falling down. Only Allah know what exactly we were feel. I should back home and take care of my mom. I should be there. I should not come here. Now my sister trying to change my flights and get there as soon as possible. My mom is everything for us. If you ask me which one i love most i will say 'MY MOTHER'. She is my heart. She is my thought. She always in my mind. I hope everything will be fine. We have no clue between my mom truly fall from chair or not?
After hari raya my mom and my father has a big fight. They do not speak until this day. Today was the worst day of all. My mom was a weak person. She only depending on her wheelchair other than that she was suffering from diabetes. I'm feel bad to her. She keep pretending there is no problem but she were not. She trying to be patient even my father said alot of mean words to my mom. She trying to strengthen their marriage. But when this worst thing came up till my mom went to hospital. My blood system going to pump out. I'm so fucking pissed off. He should not do so to my mom. Where you put your love? You're ingnoring a very loving wife. You're a head of the family and should be an example to your children. But now you seems to keep your wife away from your life. You dont even think what will your children feel. You dont even care your wife feeling. Have you seen all of that? 36 years both of you being together. In that momment your wife was suffering with your behaviour. You never change even now you gettin old. You should be shame. You pray 24 hours non stop plus you give a lecturer in your class but why you keep doing like this? YOU SO BULLSHIT! FATHER? <===== theres is no words for me. I have no father. He does not exist. I'm not even know him. His name blew away from my mind. I will not forgive him. You offend us all. You are only eligible man in his pretense. What he has done during this days very painful. What he says very hurtful. He has no feelings of poor. Better you go from hurting us again. FUCKING BULL SHIT. IF ANYTHING HAPPEN TO MY MOM YOU THE ONLY PERSON WILL BE SORRY FOR THAT AND THERE IS NO FORGIVENESS FOR YOU. I WILL REMIND THIS TILL THE END OF WORLD
* I HOPE MY MOM WILL BE FINE AND AFTER I COME BACK TO MALAYSIA I WILL BRING MY MOM STAYING WITH MY SISTER. THATS THE ONLY WAY AND MY MOM WILL NOT HURT ANYMORE. TO MANY THINGS WE PLAN OFF. TO MANY PRESENT I WANT TO GIVE. TO MANY STORY I WANT TO SHARE WITH. I'M DONE TO MANY SINS I HOPE I COULD MAKE IT AND BEGGING FOR HER FORGIVENESS. I LOVE YOU MOM. PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG.
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW
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