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FIRE IN MY SOUL


How do you feel
when someone say that you doing
a wrong thing
but
in fact you didnt do it
how you feel?
just now
my father
said he found alot of cigarette in my room
but thats not mine
thats belong to my second brother
why have to blaming on me
cos i sleep on my own room
then if you find some bad things
you just declare without proof?
he said :
"if i see you smoking around here you have to get out from this house,
you just like your brother!!"
omg!
i'm so mad!
i'm sad
how come he said those things on me
in my thoughts
i just want kick his head then run away
damn i'm so fucking piss off
how dare he compared me with my brother
i'm not like him
not for this time he said like that
but this is couple of time
he's not belive me as his own son!
he just love and care my third brothers
i know,he only your great great great son
he's claver+pray alot+hardworking bla bla bla
he only see my brother is his hope on this family
when my third brother want anything he want
my father go for it,buy for it
if me want something
damn it
alot of excuses!
arghhhhhh!!
when i'm a child
i'm seriously not to close with my father
when i get hungry
or
want extra money
or
want buy something
or
want share my problems
i always go to my soul
my mother.
till now me and my father still same
not talk to much.
i do love my mother more than my father
i always pray to my mother only
i know,
you must say i'm a bad son
but that just the way you thought
if you in my position
you will now
how i feel!